Self Forgiveness on Self as Money Personality

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be turned into a money personality that constantly compares how much money it has, to how much money others have, and to get jealous of the money others have when they are getting more than me – and to then participate in the system simply from the starting point of complete acceptance of it, just to get more money – I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist in form as my parents who, in accepting myself and my life to only ever be able to exist as it is right now in the system defined by money and survival, support my child to become another money personality that develops comparison, jealousy, envy, competition, frustration all around the point of money – just as I did, and to not question the obvious evil of a world that forced me to have to care only about money before anything else

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have, by the time I got my first job, already defined myself completely as a personality of wants and desires for entertainment and happiness through things bought with money, and to thus have already set myself up to participate in comparison, jealousy, envy, blame, frustration when the system did not instantly provide me with enough money to be able to do what I wanted to do – and I forgive myself that I did not understand and see that my personality of wants and desires for entertainment and happiness was conditioned / programmed through environmental influences such as seeing what other people have / advertisements / movies / television which all function according to the money system based entirely on inequality to facilitate some to make a profit to have a nice life while the rest are slaves – a system within which one’s survival and life and even basic comforts is something that must be bought / attained to through getting money, and where one must start out at the bottom with virtually nothing, to then be motivated by desire, greed, need and desperation to accept and participate in the capitalistic / consumer system of inequality through developing patterns of jealousy, comparison, envy, competition, frustration – all patterns that I accepted and allowed myself to create within and as myself through first seeing and experiencing my own life as a limited experience of lack / worrying about money / wanting and desiring money / wanting and desiring things to make my life more entertaining while comparing myself to others, seeing others have more money and are thus experiencing a more ‘fun and entertaining and happy and secure life’